Lately I’ve been wanting to start dressing up in a way that makes me feel like I’m actually myself again. Today I want to talk more about it!

These past months I’ve had many issues with dressing in a way I actually feel comfortable in. I just default to wearing oversized hoodies and I don’t have fun at all with my style!

My personal style is very important to me. Expressing myself through clothing was very helpful to find myself and my gender identity, and to this day it’s one of the reasons why I can feel I belong in my body even if I’m pre-transition and very closeted, LOL. That’s why it makes me super sad to see that I’ve abandoned my personal style to dress in a way I don’t feel happy with just because I feel like “doing too much” will make me stand out. So what if I stand out! I want to have fun and be myself again!

This is why I decided to start posting OOTDs on this website. I know that posting my looks will motivate me to put more work into them again and turn it into a part of my routine. I hope this year I can finally start feeling pretty and comfortable in my body and my appearance again. I’m tired of always looking so boring and wearing the same things everyday! I want my looks to reflect who I am, not to look like I’m trying to go unnoticed.

Anyway, if I started to write this is to talk more about the styles I like wearing :D I’m not a fan of labeling everything as a "-core" or aesthetic and reducing everything to a marketable label, but whatever I like categorizing things so I’m just doing this for fun, don’t judge me for it!

Ouji Fashion

Ouji fashion is so interesting to me! I love lolita fashion, but it’s something I could never wear because of dysphoria… So finding out about Ouji fashion made me so happy. Not only does it have the same Victorian inspiration and frilly pieces that I love in Lolita fashion, but it’s also an androgynous/masc fashion style I can feel comfortable in. I’ve been researching a little bit recently and I’ve found some brands that I like… but everything’s so expensive I think I won't be able to join this subculture until I save a considerable amount of money up LOL Despite that, I’d love to continue to follow this subculture from the distance until I can actually wear something. I’ll continue to research the style and learn more about it!

Personally I think I’d be a gothic ouji, although I really like old school ouji too! 

I’m a victim of Tiktok’s Y2K

Okay, okay… I know how it sounds. But to be fair, I’ve always been into this style even before everyone started calling it Y2K, LOL (some pieces from my 2019 wardrobe are proof of that!). I love these streetwear focused styles because they’re easy to maintain and require little to no effort. They’re also cheap and you don’t need to fall victim to consumerism because old clothing can be modified and restyled to fit this style (contrary to what most people believe! trust me you don’t need to buy  thousands of shein y2k garments to dress like this). 

Yes, I was in alt tiktok in 2020

Even if I dress in dark colors and take a lot of inspiration from alternative subcultures, I don’t think I belong to any of them, but if I had to choose a subculture it’d be the 2020 ekid/eboy. I was 15 when this subculture emerged and it has clearly affected my fashion style permanently, from hanging chains on my pants to oversized graphic t-shirts and chunky platforms (I still want a pair of demonia boots lol)… I was too chronically online back then but the trends I liked stayed in my style in a more toned down way to this day.

I think my style ended up being influenced and mixed with other trends and J-fashion elements, but I can’t forget how my egirl era influenced how I dress today. I thought I should mention it somewhere because I dress like this too often to not say anything about it! Sometimes there aren’t specific labels to describe your style and that’s fine and normallll

EDIT: I’ve been informed that my current fashion style is usually labeled as twilightcore (as in, the twilight saga) and I don’t even know what to say LMAOOO, this is so funny I can’t 😭

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I loveeee talking about fashion and about my personal style (in case you hadn’t noticed)…. I really like trying new things, but I think this is what I wear the most! Or what I used to wear a year ago, before I lost my motivation… But I promise I will change that this year 😤This is the year in which I wear all the clothes I own again and have fun doing it! Wearing boring hoodies is sooooo 2025, it’s time to go back to having fun!

Anyway, that’s all! I want to write another entry about makeup styles I like :D But that’s a topic for another day, so I’ll end this entry here… See you next time!