new approach to art
These past days have been very frustrating to me. In general I think there's something wrong that I can't quite understand yet, but it manifests through frustration towards my art which also causes a big art block. I don't want to get into my mental health, but even if this breakdown is caused by something else, I still think I need a new approach to art.
Until now I had a pretty sketchbook for pretty art and an ugly sketchbook for sketches and testing stuff. I really want to change that! i don't like this way of working with sketchbooks either even if i started doing it like that pretty recently. i think my biggest issue is that i want to make pretty art in a sketchbook that i still use to try new things and do quick art. i guess everything i do in that sketchbook i should move to my ugly book and then i should start putting more time into my pretty book if i actually want it to be pretty.
Thinking about that i came to the conclusion that the only way to find purpose for the pretty sketchb (because its a sketchbook and it should be a bit challenging and help me improve my art right?) is to use it as a style, theme and composition practice. Making pretty spreads is hard but maybe they'll help me find my style, finally
In general i think im too hard on myself when it comes to art. I probably need to rest and to approach art with an open mind and trying to experiment until i find what i want to say with my art
It's a bit dramatic when said like this, but art gives purpose to my life. Being so stuck creatively makes me feel like shit. So i need to find new ways to find it less frustrating while also learning and discovering what i can do with it and what it can bring to the world.
I don't really know where I want to go with this. I'm writing here because i wanted to ramble somewhere without feeling annoying. and who the fuck is gonna read my neocities blog? well if it's you, then thank you for staying around.
My journey with art is a bit messy but I can say art is the thing i love the most anyway. I hope changing the way i work can make me feel less frustrated with myself, because I'm not gonna quit LOL
I guess that's all. I will take some days to rest, but when i go back to art, i hope i can do it feeling more motivated.